Horses

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i went to a race track at Fnabashi with my friends today.
thank you,my friends! I enjoyed so much today.
horses are beautiful, its more beautiful if they make a running. it seem like old mythology.

My silly things

i'm keeping mixed feelings yet. grrrrr X(
i can't stand to see my ex this way on online.
i feel that when each time she log on Skype or something.
so i say in my mind "what's the fxxk!"
the other day i got a new friend on facebook. she is nice girl.
but she remind me of my ex while we chatted...'cos she is French, and she is crazy about Japan.
her French words, sign of talking and young mood. those points remind me.
of course its not her fault. never. i know it's all my fault.
this wicked world in my mind, I hate it.
but that's life... i know.
i have to walk on through this hard times while my mind gets downhearted sometimes.
new friend, thank you for talking to me the other day. you gave me a little happiness.
it was happy surprise.

sorry, i wrote again my silly things today too :P
don't mind about me if you read this. OK? lol

I just tell me

recently, i'm listening to a lot of John Lennon's songs.
he said:
children,don't do what i have done(子供達よ、僕と同じことをしては駄目だよ)
i couldn't walk and i tried to run(僕は歩けもしないのに走ろうとしたんだ)
you can hear this lyrics at this.
to be honest, i think this life is very hard.and i have to take it for granted.
all passed away, so all changed.
but, why don't i go to other place still? why do i stay here still?
first of all, i have to start to walk any time now.

There are no other fish in the sea

do you know Denis Johnson? he is a novelist of America.
now, I'm reading Denis Johnson's anthology of short stories. its Jesus' Son.
so his works get me down. 'cos almost characters of this book are bad people,
but its real people. this world is sick.
today, one twitter friend just said to me: I think There are no other fish in the sea.
you are right. i can't escape from the curse yet.i think it seem eternal.
and it is not really matter what right or not.

once again to ZELDA

I bought some books today.and one of them, THE GREAT GATSBY(English edition), I turned to the first page.
Its written like this: once again to ZELDA.
this simple words makes my mind alomst cry.
sure I read this book of Japanese edition before. but then, I couldn't know his real mind.
but now, I can understand his mind now.
so, I'm not going to get too sentimental like those fuckin' young someone.

The Nakano Brodwaycher

I released our podcasting.
listen to the Nakano Brodwaycher, if you have time.
>>Nakano Brodwaycher

The Locomotion

i'm listening to Sweet Seasons now.
Carole King, her voice makes me melt.
recently,"Loco-Motion" is used by commercial of Softbank.
this's a version of Grand Funk Railroad.
i like original Little Eva than them.
sure Grand Funk is one of the favorite bands of me. (Heartbreaker and Sin's a good man's brother is especially!)
but in this case,I prefer Eva's ver. i love oldie. they makes me melt so much.
i think sometimes, if i was born in the America or other... would i love Japanese song?

Doesn't take much to make me happy

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they gave me heartwarming message on the back side of a coaster!
thank you,waitresses of CAFE LIFE CAFE!
did my face look very depressed?? LOL
I'll get better soon!